Dear Diary,
I hope all is going well for you. Yes, it has been a second
hey. I just haven't made the time to write, although I had been thinking about
it and planning to do it soon. But here I am.
Since we last spoke a lot has happened, mostly positive and
mostly developmental. I had the absolute honor of taking part in the
Investec Work-Readiness programme for a week in Jo’burg towards the end of
June. And although mother Jo' refused to keep us warm, the experiences of the
week left such a highlighted mark on my life in 2014. I am filled with so much
gratitude, not only because this was an all-expenses paid trip, and ofcourse I’m
also happy that I got to walk away with a free digital camera. But it was all
about intention for me, attending workshops that sought to get me thinking a
little deeper about my career and where the intent was clearly to open up my
eyes to opportunity all around. I am forever changed. You know when you feel
like the timing of something was divinely perfect? That’s how I felt!
Everything I needed to hear, to have affirmed about myself was shared in the
fancy Sandton walls of Investec Asset Management.
I never told you what I got for my birthday, and you know I’m
gracefully the ‘bargain queen’ in that I just always happen to end up at a
store with a special. So for my birthday this year I got a new phone, a Sammy
S4 Active, and I’m really enjoying it. A lot of people always ask who got me
the gift and I always have the same answer: “If no one does it for you, DIY!”
We are often guilty of making people responsible for our own happiness,
depending on them for the best experiences of our lives. No! No! Again I say
no! I can’t tell you how many times I’ve had to cancel dinner plans or
ice-cream dates when I really wanted to go. Somehow I feel like our generation
is not comfortable with spending time with itself, I can’t remember the last
time I went on a ‘me date’. We are so consumed with spending time with people,
and sharing our lives on social media; giving the impression that everything
about us is rosy. I am guilty! Ofcourse people are beautiful, but we must get
comfortable with ourselves first. Enjoying ourselves, our own company. I’d like
to be a bit more comfortable in the quietness and stillness of my life.
I have found that although social media is an excellent networking
tool, it can also make one focus on what they don’t have and apparently what
they ‘need’, and it is so easy to suddenly feel discontented with one’s life. I miss the days of genuine friendships, days
of conversations under the sun on the green lawns by the water streams. I miss
the days when the desire to pack up and travel wasn’t fuelled by the need to
meet people who could care more and the desperate desire to forget the people
who care less, days when we desired to explore the world and to run the streets
of New York City like kids after an ice-cream truck.
Diary, I guess what I have learnt over the past few weeks is
that nothing material could fill the need for good relational love. Genuine
relationships. People who care, building each other up until the coming of
Christ. To this day I still seek such relationships, but like Kim Burrel said “
it is impossible to love without patience “. So maybe, just maybe I need to be
content with what I have, embracing the relations I have and enjoying what I am
getting- patiently.
Yours in the pursuit
T
