Reality check #5

I know why lovers get hurt, it's because they  hold their partner to a different standard. Whether that's right or wrong, I don't know.

Reality check #4

If there's anything I've learnt over and over, it's to be clear with what I want. Otherwise I'll waste my time. Take for example this evening, early this semester (around June) I started casting my employment net wide because well I felt a look little anxious about next year, I began applying everywhere in hope of just getting something- you know security. I applied also for consulting, although I knew very well that the field intimidated me and quite frankly at this point in my walk I know very well that I wouldn't be any good, so this evening I had to take one of those online tests for one of the companies. Mind you, I've written similar tests before, on the same online platform actually, but this evening, this evening my heart was not into it. I know I don't wanna work for this company. But I wasted a good hour prepping. You know desperation is a dangerous place. I refuse to function from that place any further. From now on I'm gonna apply for opportunities that genuinely interest me, don't get me wrong, I'll also apply for opportunities that are means to an end, but even these must genuinely interest me. If nothing works out at the end of this year I'd happily return home and start a spaza shop or find something to do. But I don't wanna be stuck, frustrated in a job, so I refuse to settle.

Reality Check #3

And I have felt many things, many ways, but death is by far the most confusing of all. I am pained by the loss, grateful to be alive, inspired to treasure life, and despaired by the flashing  memories and the words left unsaid. Indeed, death is by far the most confusing of all the emotions I have felt.

26 Sept 2015

Reality check #2

You can't cry for what you  don't want

Reality Check #1

I guess for me it's just the idea that you are no longer special to someone you loved dearly.