Saturday, June 17, 2017

Perhaps ...

Perhaps the most liberating feeling is realizing that you are enough
and that you are okay
Even just by yourself.
Learning not to center your world around people
Understanding that we are all  flawed
and that disappointment, like fury and hate, is too heavy a burden to carry;
more so at 25 - and your bones start giving way.

Perhaps the most liberating feeling is finding your way home,
by yourself.
Finally figuring it out.
Being bold enough to go by yourself
Then to come back home to yourself.

Perhaps the greatest form of growth is not falling for the hype
discarding popularity
living quietly
getting on a bus somewhere, getting off nowhere and just exploring the point
and discovering your corners.

Perhaps the deepest form of intimacy is having secrecy with yourself
Not telling your friends that you are taking driving lessons
Or climbing mountains all by yourself
Not because you are proud
But because they are yours to have and share with yourself only

Perhaps this is where I've been travelling to  all along
Perhaps all these things needed to happen to me in order for me to relate clearly with God
I mean everything.
When He is everything - all  in all.
Your first point of call; not because you are disappointed in  the world,
but because He is the one you trust.

Perhaps
Perhaps




Matric Reunion

Thabang WaJesu
Can't decide which one it is
Whether - fear or excitement,
Or even a slight bit of shame.
A whirlwind of emotion.

Something nice happened today.   I was added to a Whatsapp group for our matric class' 8 year reunion.
These people lay special in my heart.
That class, those memories, so special!
Best times of my life.

So I don't really know how I feel.
I've changed so much.

People feel the need to SHOW UP for these things.
Best foot forward.

I'm overcome by emotion.

I just look forward to seeing them, stroking their faces, enjoying their company, to be there - here, to hear their laughter, and to celebrate Khotso's life, and Boy's.
 And cry.

And truly cry at the passing of time.

The kinda person you fall in love with

Some people make you feel ashamed for feeling how you feel about them and for them. But there are others that make your feelings valid; yes- even when you are being your normal overly dramatic self.
This is the kind of person you fall in love with