Since December 2020 I have been involved in something reminiscent
of a romantic relationship. This experience has been both a source of happiness
and a cause of much anxiety in my life. During this time - cognizant of the
many feelings of anxiety loving Njabulo has caused - I decided to go back to
therapy and to draw nearer to God. I was already aware of some biblical truths
about love, including how perfect love casteth
away all fear, and what the Word says about dealing with anxiety in the
book of Philippians. Regardless, I felt led to the book of Hebrews as it
specifically addresses the matter of entering God’s rest. It seemed to me that
my issue was wavering in between entering rest and toiling. My toil related to
wanting to find my Christian place, where I felt safe, wanted and loved. This has been a theme of my life, this desire
and deep longing to find belonging and love, and to be found.
I want to share a few things that God shared with me and
others during my journey through the book of Hebrews, which I hope to hold on
to, because He was teaching me how to remain in a place of rest and peace and
joy in Him.
He was very specific about the importance of doing the
things that need to be done even when we don’t FEEL like it. He reminded me
that the Word encourages us to pray without CEASING, to not grow WEARY of coming
together with the saints (i.e. church and other ways of fellowship) and to
ALWAYS give thanks in ALL things.
He spoke to me a lot about consistency. Daddy said I should
stick to our daily devotion time even when I don’t feel like it, or when I’m
busy and when it feels like it’s not achieving anything. He encouraged me to
keep doing the “work”, to keep praying for myself and for others.
I hope this word encourages you to keep going
