For me, it is no longer enough to know why I am doing things,
Like why I am binge eating cause I am stressed, or why I'm eating wheat based products, being fully aware of the implications for someone who has celiac disease, however still doing it anyway 'cause well, "there's something going in in my life and I simply refuse to address it. "
Yey to me for getting this far and understanding WHY I do what I do. Why I 'harm' myself, and why sometimes it seems I am even sabotaging myself by being lazy & disrespectful of authority.
It doesn't interest me anymore, the why. Yes, it's tremendous progress to be able to reflect deeply and identify patterns, but for me, I think the biggest deal should be the HOW.
HOW do I become better?
HOW do I change?
HOW do I move forward to the person I've always aspired to be?
Aspirations are like big shoes and big clothes that we are growing into. That's why the HOW is so important to me. If I get stuck at the why, I'll keep making excuses for resisting growth and not doing better.
A friend I hadn't chatted to in a while recently wrote back to me following my very emotional, very reminiscent " I miss you " message, one of the biggest things he said to me was " I hope you are taking care of yourself ". A seemingly simple line in a text one may think, yet I wonder if really I am taking care of myself.
The HOW
No comments:
Post a Comment