Lost my senzes

He's beautiful
I took his
You are beautiful
I took yours
I enjoyed yours

On a wet winter's night
A Thursday of August
A warm evening
I had your food
Sat in your space
Took your place
Danced to his tune
As I lay in his lair

I see why you love him
I can't understand how he loves you
I don't know how I got here
It was supper with a friend
Now on his lips I find mine
Fully knowing he's not mine to have

He is yours
I tasted yours
Took of bite not meant for me

In the morning I see his guilt
The lovingness of yesternight is now a form of war & aggression
I am lost
Then I understand, guilt
It has him by the neck

For me, I can't understand how I ended up a side
Even just for a moment
How I got here
Perhaps the pain of mine past
That has so set in my heart
Maketh way out for the world to see?
Perhaps the healing I thought I had is not quite there?
My wounds are still bare
Perhaps I am broken and never quite healed?

I dont know
I can't say why I am here
All I can say is this,
I am sorry.

You are beautiful
I had what's yours
Tasted what isn't mine to have