The break up

22nd April 2014, 22h43

I woke up this morning and I knew it,
It was like we had said our goodbyes the night before
I feel fantastic
Better than I've felt in a while.
The past month has been exciting
I'll go to the extent of saying you are the best thing to have happened to my 2014
The way you kiss me, your eyes. It's been special.
Yeah I've fallen you.
Fallen hard and good.
But I am proud
Too proud product to allow myself to get hurt.
Why do I feel fantastic?
I don't know.
I woke up feeling free this morning.
It's hard to say this but I think I ought to go,
ought to go and leave 'us'.
I cant be that guy that fell for you when you are still holding back,
You are holding back so much when I've let my guard down. 
I cant play a losing game.
I already lost, I fell for you.
I have a lot more to lose.
I cant be thinking about you when I have no idea what you are thinking about.
There's a term for that- mental slavery.
I cant be talking about you when I'm not all you talk about.
I cant be the one checking my phone at 22h43 anymore,
concerned about how we havent spoken all day.
That hurts.
I like how you said you have flaws and all,
well so do I.
And out of love I'm willing to put up with yours,
But you are still holding back.
You are not in this a hundred.
I know he hurt you ...
It's just knowing that you can not be all fully mine
for now, for the next while- until you've dealt with the pain of your past.
And that's why I am going.
'Cause I'm not sure I can wait a while.

Goodbye mabebeza
Atleast we had a dream about our Ryan and Isaiah.
May your passion never die.

Goodbye love